I have to admit that the last couple weeks have taken a toll on me. Being someone who lives life with an open and overly compassionate heart, when things happen like the shooting in Newtown and then all the inevitable fighting, blaming and heated name calling that happens in its aftermath, it really upsets me. I am aware that I am child like in this way but I can’t help it, I see the whole world as my family and can’t stand when my family fights. It breaks my heart and always makes me wonder, will we ever be able to heal in this type of environment?
Without fail, I start conjuring up all these delusions of grandeur about how I am going to save the world from itself, which I am always partly aware is just a naive attempt to relieve my own pain and then eventually I come around to the same conclusion I always come to and that is that there is no such thing as one big solution that would work. We are far too complex of a society for there to be a one size fits all remedy to what ails us. The only thing any of us really have the power to do is to be responsible about what we bring to this world and maybe, just maybe, if we are lucky we can inspire others.
This time around I said enough with this spin cycle. If I want things to change I am going to have to trust that making a change in myself is enough (and forget the whole “but I am only one person” and the world needs more because its a useless thought in this context) I nailed myself to the proverbial wall so to speak and really made myself listen to the notion that I can only do what I can do and that is all (which I hate by the way – :)). Naturally the second I did that I noticed that I wasn’t even doing what I can do very well because I wasn’t doing anything. I was busy spending all my time worrying about all the things I wasn’t doing and what others weren’t doing. Does the madness ever end?
So I stopped the madness and said, okay what can I do? What is my unique contribution? And the answer that came was Comedy. I realized, I can gladly continue to dedicate my life to bringing great comedy to the world. Will this pursuit save the world? Probably not. But it will transform mine and maybe, just maybe, wherever I go laughter will follow and laughter is a contribution I can be proud of.