Alright I’ve got a confession to make: I’ve got writer’s block. I don’t mean in general, I’m actually more creative than ever when it comes to my original projects, I mean I have writer’s block with this blog. I can’t tell you how many times in the last two weeks I have started to post something and then stopped and deleted it.
I think it’s because I finally had that breakthrough I have been pushing for since this whole thing began. I finally started reaching out to people in my industry, sharing my projects and they have started listening, in fact they could even be reading this blog right now for all I know, and so all the sudden my very personal blog doesn’t feel so personal anymore.
All this time I have been using this blog to share with my friends and family the trials and tribulations of being an artist going after a big dream. I’ve been open, vulnerable and forthcoming with my weaknesses because I really wanted to share the truth about what it takes to face your fears and keep on chugging but suddenly there is this new element. Now there is the potential that I am also sharing all of that with producers, managers and investment people who are considering whether or not to do business with me and it feels a little like going to a job interview in your underwear.
Conventional wisdom would tell you that you can’t let them see your weaknesses, you’ve got to put on the big show, always put your best foot forward and all that jazz, particularly in my case, since I am not at all sure that the Hollywood folks really get my whole smiley, kumbaya, overly optimistic, geeky nature. I think a lot of times they mistake that for naivete. I am not at all the package they expect a potential powerhouse to come in and I get that “what the heck are you so happy about” look a lot.
But as I am writing this I am realizing that I need to just put the advice I have given to so many others into play. I have always said that the only way to make it in this business is to be uniquely you, to be the most you you can be because that is where originality comes from, and that no matter how many times they try to tell you who they think you should be based on what appears to have worked before, deep down what they need you to do and be is something that has never been seen before.
So the heck with it. Writer’s block done. I am just going to keep being fully me. That’s the new game in town anyway. You put yourself out there on the web, hopefully get loads of people to follow you and and become your “fans” and then boom sponsors want to give you money. These days its really all about you and what you guys want to read or watch, not them. Wow! I feel much better. I’m glad we had this little discussion. 🙂
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